"But how can I even begin to fix everything that is wrong with me?  Look at this mess!!!!" I shout.

I can feel the Holy Spirit looking behind me.  "What mess?  All that I see is what is going on between us right here and now.  All that you see behind you are things I cannot see.  It does not matter what happened in your past.  I cannot see them because they have been erased from my eyes.  I only see you standing in the kitchen right now and you have become overwhelmed by lies.  You do not seek Me you do not even look toward Me because you are so ashamed of something that is not even a part of you, so stop trying to hold a very heavy nothing!"

"But I did it," I answer simply. 

"Did WHAT?!  L i s t e n  t o   ME child!........  I see NOTHING in your hands!  I see no weight on your back!  I FORGAVE YOU IN JESUS NAME!  Your problem does not exist!  You only need to trust Me.  Believe that I love you and Believe you are Mine.

Thats it.